I first want to apologize for going MIA for the last few weeks. Even though I preach to others, I sometimes have to remind myself of my own advice. Sometimes obstacles pop up on our path to righteousness, but we must always remember to keep the faith even when things aren’t going our way.
I heard the song Million Reasons by Lady Gaga and some of the lyrics seemed so relatable at this time:
You’re giving me a million reasons
Give me a million reasons
Givin’ me a million reasons
About a million reasons
I bow down to pray
I try to make the worst seem better
Lord, show me the way
To cut through all his worn out leather
I’ve got a hundred million reasons to walk away
But baby, I just need one good one to stay
I embarked upon a period where I feel completely stagnant. I had come so far, but yet I felt so far away. Once again I felt like my circumstances lowered my self-confidence. I wasn’t where I wanted to be, so I didn’t feel adequate enough. I kept trying to come up with solutions to my problems, creating more problems; the biggest one being worrying all the time and being super anxious. I couldn’t keep still if I tried. But, the one thing that popped out in the song was Lord, show me the way. I always pray and talk to God during my times of distress, but with every heartbreak makes it hard to keep the faith. Not everyone can easily shout for joy when their circumstances seem insurmountable. I can be honest and say that my faith wavers during these times. But, this is the time we should trust God more.
Who wants to wait for things we feel we deserve. Most people don’t. We want instant results and gratification and when that doesn’t happen, we try to take control and make it happen quicker. Fear creeps in telling us it’s never going to happens so, we start to do all kinds of crazy things to make it happen. Then, if your like me after a while you start thinking “what the heck am I doing?” Why am I even trying to change something I have not control over? That is called Insanity.
When things don’t go as planned, Don’t fear! When we learn to trust in God’s plan, we will see that he has our best interests at heart. No matter how hard you try, there are times when things just don’t go as planned. And, its not because we aren’t doing something wrong, (although there may be times we are and we are asked to turn from our ways) it is because the thing you are after may not be designed for you. It is not your destiny. Every time I thought I was being rejected, I was actually being re-directed to something better. God has so much bigger plans for our lives. We may not see how that is possible, but soon God will reveal those steps needed to accomplish HIS plan and purpose for your life
I woke up really early Sunday morning and I heard the Lord directing me to talk to him. While we are waiting on God to answer our prayers, He’s waiting on us to trust him and talk with him about how we are feeling. The famous scripture says “Ask, and you shall receive” If you do not ask, you will not receive. I was even directed to the scripture Psalm 27:8 My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.” And my heart responds, “LORD, I am coming.” I knew God was calling me to talk to him and to lean on him and not my own understanding. Because, that certainly wasn’t changing anything. All I could really do is try to get back on track, instead of staying stagnant and letting my circumstance lower my self-confidence.
We shouldn’t let the insecurities of not being where we want to be waver our faith. We all have days where we mess up and that’s okay. Your strength lies in your ability to forgive yourself, and know that no matter how far you have gone in the wrong direction, you have a chance to turn it around. We must take action though. we can’t just say things are going to change or we are going to stop doing whatever thing that is hindering us. Words are not enough; we must act.